As Long As You Love Me, Anthony.. (anthony)

[Pixel Conner]

Pixel moved through the hallways, and it became apparent that she was heading to his dormroom. Oh, how many times she'd been there in their relationship, she knew the way from any part of the school. She wondered if what just happened would ruin their first memory of the library. Him saying he loved her for the first time, opening up to her. She was going to chose that memory instead of what had just happened. Why did Alex have to be here, anyway? Shouldn't they have checked his name against the other students? Mainly just hers. "Hm, Alex Swift, sounds familiar... Let me check this girls file.. Oh, nope, nope, he can't come here." I mean, really.

Pixel opened the door to Anthony's room in a hurry, and pulled him inside. She dropped his hand, leaving him to close the door. She walked over to the window. She remember the day before the library, when she was Anthony had gotten into a fight, and the fight had ended with him standing at the window like she was, staring out onto the side yard. There were always people there, hanging down. Pixel watched them for a few moments before her tears were coming so hard and so fast everything was blurred and she couldn't make them out anymore."Please don't hate me Anthony. I can't lose you."

[Anthony Price]

Anthony walked silently with Pixel. It was clear they were heading to his dorm room. When they got there she moved in quickly. Then her hand parted from his, and he moved in as well and closed the door. He watched her while she stood looking out the window. He'd once stood there when they had their first fight. But she was silent for a long time. And so was he. He was mostly waiting for her to tell him what was going on. He hated this feeling.

Then came her words. To him it was obvious she was crying now. He didn't hate her .. He never could. He loved her. He always would. And she wasn't going to lose him. He quietly moved to her and spun her around to look at him. Then he kissed her with everything he had. A kiss that said everything for him. And one that would probably leave her head spinning. She wasn't going to lose him. Sure he might be a little angry but he would never hate her.

[Pixel Conner]

Pixel closed her eyes, causing two more tears to run down her cheeks. But she ignored them. Anthony was kissing her in a way that told her he still loved her, which is all she wanted. She couldn't let Alex ruin her life yet again. And he'd be ruining the best thing in her life, her relationship with Anthony, and is she was crying over being pregnant when she had a steady boyfriend, she couldn't make it through being a single mother at seventeen. She just couldn't. Pixel wasn't strong enough, she knew that. Her hands ran into her boyfriend's blonde hairs, and began using her her body to push his back and onto his bed. She kissed him back with passion, with love, putting her heart and soul into it. Anthony didn't get to be the only to amaze the other today, that wasn't fair.

Pixel slowly pulled away from his lips. She'd stopped crying, how could she cry and kiss an amazing guy like Anthony Price at the same time. She was silently, snuggling into him and laying her head on his chest, clinging to himtightly. She was alright now, now that she knew she wouldn't lose Anthony. She waited until she knew she could talk without her voice cracking, though you could still tell she'd been crying moments before. "I was in the library, and I was trying to do math homework and stufy for that stupid test that I'm going to fail anyway so I don't know why I even bothered.. and I start crying... Because I'm scared, Anthony. I know you have a lot on your plate right now, and I don't want to bother you but I'm scared to death for my future. I'm about to be a mother, and I can't even tell the Dr. Anders, and he's pretty flipping cool so that's saying something.. And I'm scared because I'm failing all of my classes, like every single one of them...and I'm so tired, Anthony. I could just sleep for a week right now.. And I want out of this school so bad, I.. I can't handle it anymore, I'm losing my shit, babe.." She grabbed onto his shirt tightly, shoving her face against his chest. "Don't lose it again."

Pixel was silent for a few moments more,then continued, her have still in his chest, breathing in big lung fullsof Anthony-scented air to relax and calm her. "SoI heard someone sit beside me.. and then I hear him Anthony and he still freaking sounds the same. After like, a year and a half I still reconize his voice, and it still fricking hurts.. Then I don't know, I remember him trying to help me with math, then I remember smacking him on the shoulder repeatedly, and then he hugged me.. and I just stopped fighting.. I sank into his arms and imagined he was you, and ignored all the rest... Then he started saying how he missed me, and then I felt bad, and I asked how he'd been, pretty much asking him how he got here, and then.. And then you showed up... I know I'm stupid, Anthony. I should've just punched him in the face and ran but I just.. I wanted a hug I guess." She didn't loosen her drip on him or his shirt until she was done talking, and she couldn't bring herself to look into his eyes, or even at his face.

[Anthony Price]

Anthony moved back with her. Then she had him laying on the bed. And she was on top on him. He had to admit he's missed the feeling of her being on top of him. Even if they were just laying there. Then she started to talk. He didn't want her to think she was a bother. He didn't ever see her that way not ever. Not even with what he had on his plate. Then he felt her tense up like she was going to cry again but what came were more words.

When she said all she really wanted was a hug. He wrapped his arms around her. He liked holding her. "I could go tell him with you. I mean .. This baby is half my doing after all" He smiled some at her. Trying to show her things would be ok. "Or .. we could have S*x and then go tell him together. Some times S*x makes everything a little better. It relieves all your tension." He moved his hands up her back in a massaging way. "Or I could be you're totally sweet boyfriend and massage you" He wanted to make her feel better. He wanted to be the one to always make her feel better.

[Pixel Conner]

Pixel melted into Anthony's arms, completely relaxing. It wasn't the type of relaxing she'd done with Alex, that was just to tired to fight anymore relaxing, this was the one of her life was holding her and she no longer felt like dying type of relaxing. She land in Anthony's arms, listening to his options. Oh, two sounded nice minus the telling the doctor part. She hand ran down his side and over to the buckle of his pants. She felt that familiar urge to remove Anthony's button up shirt well up inside her. Then she heard option three, and his hands were already working on her back. She let out a soft moan, not something Anthony hadn't heard a million times before coming from her lips, and she melted into him even more.

She moved both hands to his belt, undoing it then the button on his jeans. Her hands wasted no time with unbuttoning his shirt and removing it before peeling off his tank. Just the way Pixel liked her boyfriend, in bed, shirtless, and willing. "Or.. We could do both... And you could be the sexy, hot, totally sweet and amazing in bed boyfriend.." And witth that, her lips were on his neck. She spun the tip of her tongue in small, gently circles on his skin so a moment or two, then bit down on his skin. Oh, how she wanted this boy.

[Anthony Price]

Anthony smiled when she said they could do both. Then her fingers were undoing his belt and the button to his jeans. He had to admit both sounded really appealing to him. Then her fingers undid each button on his shirt and took it off him, then his tank top. He loved the way this girl thought. Maybe all they really needed to focus was a little S*x. He had to admit not having S*x made things way worse then they were when they took a break from studying to have S*x. This might very well be the key to fix all their problems. His smile grew when he felt her tongue moving in small circles on his neck. Then the bite that came afterwards. He let out a small low soft moan. He liked how she knew what to do to make him happy.

Then he moved and took her shirt off. He put his hands on her and moved her gently so she was laying on her stomach. Then he straddled her but didn't put his weight on her. He didn't want to hurt her or the baby. He gently moved her hair to the side. Then he ran his hands up her smoothe soft skin firmly. Her body was so tense. Then he started on her shoulders. "I love hearing how great I am Sweets" He leaned down a little and put his lips on her neck kissing it while he rubbed. Then he went back to just rubbing.

[Pixel Conner]

Pixel smiled when he called the sweets. It was one of the things she loved about their relationship, his nickname for her. Though he was always "babe" or "baby", she was sweets. He thought she was sweet, that's what the nickname told her. Sometimes it was hard for her to see herself like that, to think she was like that, sweet the way he thought she was sweet. She thought she was actually kind of mean, and she talked too much, and overemotional, and she had poor judgement skills. Like with Alex in the library. Pixel was pulled out of her thoughts when she felt his lips on her neck, and moaned softly. She made a little huffing noise when he went back to just rubbing her back, and looked back at him, pouting.

That didn't last long though, because she reached back and unclippped her bra, removing her arms from the straps. "Damn things just get in the way." She smiled into the pillow. "You shold do the neck kissing thing, I think I like that." Already her mscles were relaxinf under his smooth, gentle touch, but there were spots were there was knots, like her neck and shoulders and lower back. "But you might want to be careful, I might get use to this."

[Anthony Price]

Anthony watched as she reached back and unclipped her bra, then took it off. For that split second he stopped rubbing. Then he was back at it. She was telling him what she liked. She liked having his lips on her neck while he rubbed. He loved touching her, running his hands over her smooth soft skin. He thought it was ok for her to get used to this because he would do it any time she wanted it. He would do anything for her. He was so in love with her.

"You can get used to it all you want. I'll do this for you any time you want it." Then his lips moved back to her neck and across her shoulders. The kisses were soft. Just enough to give her some goosebumps and to make her feel good. It wasn't anything rough. He wanted to show her how much he loved her, not how much pent up anger he had inside of him. Though he was sure if it was S*x and emotion he showed in it she would like. He liked having S*x with her.

[Pixel Conner]

"Oh my god." Pixel turned her face and moaned the words into his pillow. Anthony was amazing, did he realize he was amazing? She remembered the first time she'd been in his room, which have been while he was detoxing shortly after coming here, and they'd cuddled and made out and he ate a cupcake whole. Pixel still thought that was probably the sexiest thing she'd ever seen. Anthony shirtless was a close second. She'd wished he'd been shirtless while he'd eaten the whole cupcake, she might have died from sexiness over load. "If we weren't already getting married, I'dask you to marry me because holy crap that feels like.. oh my god I love you. I just F*cking love you."

Pixel flung the bra off the bed, not caring anymore, then flipped over, running her hands up Anthony's abs and chest, then she grabbed the back of his neck. "I wanna hear you moan my name.." She smiled, a naughty smirk she knew would turn Anthony on, then she kissed him, passionately. She was pretty sure they'd had some of the best kisses of their life time today, all in the past fifteen minutes. Anthony was perfect. His lips were perfect, his love was perfect, even his freaking scars were perfect. Pixel's hands ran down his body again, and her fingertips brushed the bullet wound scar on his shoulder. She remembered kissing it while it was still healing.. And now it was just a scar. They'd been through so much together, it made tears well up in Pixel's eyes, even with kissing Anthony. She slid her hands into his loose waist line at the sides, slowly inching him down his legs as far as they could go without her having to lean up. She pulled their lips about just barely, whispering softly and their lips brushing together. "I love you inside and out, Anthony Price. You're perfect to me." A tear of happiness rolled down her cheek,he could tellit happinessfrom the look in her eyes.

[Anthony Price]

Anthony liked the way she moaned into his pillow. It was hott and only making it harder to wait to be with her. Then she was telling him how much she loved him. If he could only express how much he loved her in words he would. Then the bra went flying and she turned underneath him. Her hands roamed his chest and abs. Then they were on the back of his neck. And the way she smirked only made him want her more. He moved some rubbing against her. Then his lips were occupied with hers. He loved the way her hands moved on his body.

Then her lips were off his and she was speaking again. He saw a tear move down her cheek. His hand moved a wiped it. His dark blue eyes never leaving hers. Then he moved and leaned down some, his hands on both sides of her shoulders. He rubbed against her again. His lips now next to her ear. "Pixel" he moaned soft and low. "I need you right now"

[Pixel Conner]

FADE TO BLACK

"Whoa" was the only word Pixel could think of to describe.. that. She grabbed his button up from where she'd thrown it on the floor, and put it on. Then she climbed back into bed with her fiance, crawling over him to get to her spot in the bed. It was weird.. It was technically his bed, but she knew where she belonged in it. Like when they got married and moved into a place of her own she knew they'd both have their sides of the bed.. at the moment Anthony's spot was closest to the door, while her spot was right next to the wall. She felt safe here, like nothing could get to her, because Anthony was there to protect her. She laid her head on his shoulder, her body relaxing into his. First the massage.. And then the insanely hot love they had just made.. All her stress and worry and unhappiness was gone.

Her hand played with his abs, tracing the lines of his muscles as her name coming from his moaning lips replayed in her head. Over and over. He was so amazing, he was and did everything she could ever ask or hope for. she hand traveled up, playing with the patch of hair on his chest, and then she ran her fingers over the silver cross around his neck. She'd never ask him about it.. but since they were having a baby together she figured now was not the time to tip toe around Anthony and the stupid walls he put up around his past and feelings. "Babe.. Do you believe in God? Like.. Jesus and like.. John the baptist.. Like.. why do you wear this cross?" Her fingers still played with it, staring at it.

[Anthony Price]

Anthony laid with his eyes closed. He had really missed being with Pixel. Its like he needed to be as close as two people could possibly be to feel like he could survive in the world. Maybe now they wouldn't be so unhappy. And maybe their grades would improve just cause that stress wasn't there anymore. He knew Pixel was unhappy a lot and he felt hopefully this took care of most all of that. He wanted her to know that even though she was pregnant he still wanted to be with her.

Then she was asking if he believed in god and all that stuff. Asking him why he wore the silver cross around his neck. He laid in silence for a few minutes until he had an answer formed in his head. "Sure .. Yeah I believe there's a god up there, I'm not so sure about the whole Jesus thing but, my father was italian so he was catholic. And he went to mass a couple times a year. I'm not really a practicing .. well anything. But I wear it cause it was my mothers. I feel close to her this way. And one day this can be our kids" He smiled at her.

[Pixel Conner]

Pixel looked up at him as he talked, gave a smile smile back, then look at the cross again. It was sweet that Anthony wore it because it was his mothers, and that he would give it their child one day. "See that... That makes you a good dad." Pixel knew Anthony still had a lot of doubt about his ability to be a good father. Pixel wondered if it would take AMP being here for Anthony to realize he wasn't going to screw it up, that he would be a kind, caring, loving father. It hurt to see Anthony not believe in himself. Which probably made her a hypocrite, because she was scared shitless that she'd be a horrible mother and that the kid would grow up resenting and hating her.

Though she thought it was sweet, Pixel didn't want AMP to just wear the cross because of whos it was. "What if we.. like.. I don't know. We could believe in God, and like.. raise out kid in church... I don't want them to end up like us." Pixel removed her hand, laying on her back, staring up at the ceiling. "I don't want it.. I want it to be smart, and caring and loving, and I want them to be a good kid.. I want it to be a mix of the good parts of us, I don't want them to get all doped up and beat people with bats before they go and scream at people because they felt like it.. I don't want it to be crazy.." Pixel swallowed. She didn't want the kid to be her, pretty much. The only thing about Anthony she'd added was the drugs part. "Do you think.. God would help it be a better person than me?" Pixel didn't look at Anthony, tears threating too pour out of her eyes and she didn't want Anthony to see her cry for the second time today.

[Anthony Price]

Anthony laid there and listened to her talk. She said he was going to be a good father. But again he wasn't sure if that was true or not. But he loved listening to Pixel's voice. It was soothing to him. He wondered if his was the same for her. Just feeling her close to him was soothing. The way her hand moved on his chest made him feel at ease. He was just so completely in love with her in every single way possible.

He swalloed some thinking about her words. She wanted to go to church and stuff and raise their baby to believe in god. And she didn't want their baby to be crazy. He didn't want that either. "I don't want our baby to make the choices we did either. We didn't exactly make the best decisions but .. Making those mistakes gave us each other. Sure I regret what I did and I know you do too .. but I'm thankful for you. I don't know if going to church will make life better for our baby .. But I'm willing to give it a shot" He shifted some so that Pixels head was laying on the pillow and he was staring down at her. Then he gave her a sweet smile.

[Pixel Conner]

Pixel relaxed into the pillow. How could she be worried about anything when Anthony was giving her that smile. He knew what his smiles did to her, he had her wrapped around his finger when he smiled, she could make her do things she wouldn't do normally. Something she'd normally freak out about she'd do calmly and with ease with Anthony by her side, with a sweet, charming smile on his lovely face. So Pixel stopped freaking out about their child needing up like her, and reached up, placing a hand on Anthony's cheek. "Okay.. Then we will. Clearly your mom believed in something besides how amazing you are, or she wouldn't have wore this, right?" She removed the hand on his cheek and poked the cross. She wished she could've met Anthony's mother, but that wasn't an option, cause she was...

Pixel wrapped her arms around her future husband, pulling herself close to him. She yawned softly, relaxing into him. "What about where we're gonna live after here? I don't want to live in Texas, like ever.. So are we going to Cali? I could totally live on a beach house with you. I would live in a tent on the beach with you. I would live anywhere, I just want to have you and AMP.. Then I'm okay, just those two things.." She stopped rambling, burying her face in Anthony's neck. He smelled so good. Like sweat, but also soap and his face was so soft from shaving, and she was just so... Smooth. She reached up, laying a hand on his cheek again. And he was all hers.