Do You Think I'm Crazy? (gage)

[Pixel Conner]

"Won't be so easy this time to hurt me.. you can try.." Pixel sang softly. She imagined people in the seats, all eyes on her as she sang. She was sitting on the floor, facing the seats in the aditorium It was pretty dark, mostly because she wasn't allowed to be in here and she had no idea where the switch to turn on the lasts. "You can't break a broken heart. So try your best now baby, try your best to break me. No demange you can do now, I'm immune to you now!" Pixel got louder, closing her eyes. She had a nice voice, even though it had a lot of emotion right now. She was singing this song to an ex. An ex that had recently came to B.A.D. An ex that was the reason she herself was at B.A.D. It was... nerve wrecking to see him again, to hear that voice again, to feel all those emotions once again.

It didn't help that the young girl was also pregnant, failing math, and was too scared to talk to anyone about how scared she was about being pregnant, even her boyfriend. She didn't want Anthony to see her like this. All freaked out and worried she's gonna turn out like her mom. Pixel stopped in th middle of the song, changing it at the thought of her mom. "Sometimes I think about you, wonder if your out there somewhere thinking 'bout me... And would you even recgonize the woman that your little girl has grown up to be. 'Cause I look in the mirror and all I see are your blue eyes staring back at me, they're the only thing you ever gave to me at all!" Pixel had gotten up on her knees, singing louder and with more passion. Then she heard a noise somewhere in the aditorium, and she jumped up. "Look I know I'm not suppose to be in here, I just needed alone time.. Am I going to get in trouble?" She looked around the big room, looking for whatever made the noise.

[Gage Pierce]

Gage had been slowly learning his way around the school. He had thought about maybe putting together a talent show for the kids to perform in. To express themselves in a healthy way. He thought these kids needed something like that. And maybe he could get Riley to help him put it together. Maybe if some of his fellow coworkers saw these kids as more then criminals things would run a little smoother around here.

As he came into the auditorium he heard a voice singing. So he closed the door quietly and moved through the shadows listening. Then his foot hit a chair on his way to the stage, catching himself he made a noise. Then silently cursed when she stopped singing. He didn't want her to stop. But he moved into the dim light so she could see him. "No .. No you're not in any trouble. You're really good" He smiled to her. His eyes looked the young girl over and the way she stood on the stage. She looked good up there like thats where she belonged.

[Pixel Conner]

Pixel watched a teacher come into the light. Kinda cute. He must be new though because Pixel had no idea who he was. She sat back down, watching him. "I sing what I'm feeling. I'm feeling sad so I sang songs about the things that make me sad, my ex and my mother. I draw better than I sing." She figured all the teachers read the students file, so telling this guy about her ex, the reason she was at bad, and her mother was no big deal. Plus she was hormonal right now and the teacher was cute, cute guys got her to do stupid things. Like have s3x without condoms, or at least Anthony had managed to do that, maybe it was just blonde boys.

Pixel leaned back on the floor, ignoring how dirty it would be. She remember the first day she met Anthony, when they hung out in the bathroom and she'd been so fricking worried about germs on the floor, and he just... didn't care. She liked that about Anthony, he didn't freak out a lot. He wasn't very emotional at all, which matched her over emotionalness. And he wasn't a talker, and she could talk for hours non-stop. She and Anthony fit, there was no denying that, and now she was forming a perfect little angel in her body with his DNA. "Isn't she lovely? Isn't she wonderful? Isn't she precious? Less than one minute old. I never thought that through love we'd be making one as lovely as she, but isn't she lovely made from love?"

Pixel sang "Isn't she lovely" by Stevie Wonder, and her hand found its way to her stomach as her foot was tapping to the beat she could hear in her head, and it still amazed her she had a child growing in there. Sometimes being a mother freaked her out, and sometimes.. It made the smile that was creeping its way onto Pixel's face appear. "Isn't she pretty? Truly the angel's best. Boy, I'm so happy, we have been heaven blessed. I can't believe, what God as done, through us he's given life to one, but isn't she lovely made from love?" Pixel sang about her unborn child, forgetting Gage was there for a few long moments, then she sat up, her hand coming off her stomach. "I'm Pixel Ann Conner, by the way."

[Gage Pierce]

Gage moved closer to the stage when she started singing again. She had said before that she sang her emotions. And what they were about. His blue eyes watched her movements while she sang. He knew the song. Stevie Wonder wrote it about his daughter. He was familiar with all kinds of music. It was a big influence on him. And in his life. And he wanted to share that with these kids. Once he got to the stage he put his arms on the edge and rested his head on them like a kid would while she sang.

Once she was finished she introduced herself. "I'm Gage .. Pierce. But you can just call me Gage. That was an odd song to be singing if you sing about people and what your feeling" Gage looked up to her. He wasn't exceptionally good at reading people. Usually he liked it when they were pretty straight forward with him. So he waited to see if she would just tell him what was on her mind. Sure she didn't have to but it would be better for him if she did. Easier anyways.

[Pixel Conner]

The young blonde looked at the teacher, a somewhat blank on her face. She could just tell him. But then he might tell the headmaster, and she couldn't have that. She needed to tell him first. But still.. It would feel good to tell someone. She was pretty sure Anthony had told at least one person that wasn't just another student. Pixel crawled over to the cute teacher, then sat in front of him, looking down at him. She stuck the thumb nail of her left hand in her mouth, chewing on it, obliviously thinking about something. Some purple nail polish flaked off as she chewed on her nail, onto her teeth and tongue. She removed her nail from her mouth, wiping it on her shorts. She grabbed the collar of her shirt and brough it up, rubbing the finger nail polish from her teeth.

She looked at Gage again, then reached forward. Her hand was in a fist except for the pinky finger, waiting from his to link in hers. Pinky promises were the real deal to Pixel, she took them very seriously, even at seventeen. "Promise you can keep a secret?" She smiled at her. To him she probably looked like a innocent teenage girl, he didn't have to know the scarred, broken girl that inside her. There was days when that girl was still fighting to get out. Alex being here didn't help, but she had Anthony. He was her rock, her hero, he was Captain America to her Peggy Carter, he was her everything. She would be the broken, scarred girl today if he wasn't there for her, if he didn't love her like he did.

[Gage Pierce]

Gage watched her. She was an odd student. More chipper then the rest he'd met. She almost seemed like she shouldn't be here. But then again he knew that sometimes looks could be decieving. But it didn't matter to him why she was there. He could still like her. And maybe in the time she's been at bad she might have straightened herself out. He had noticed the way she studied him. Like she was debating on telling him something. The way she chewed on her finger nail said she might be nervous. Then again maybe she just liked the way the finger nail polish tasted.

Then she was sitting in front of him looking down at him. Gage's kind, gentle eye's looked back up at her. She was asking him to pinky promise. Could it really be that easy to get kids to trust you with their secrets. A pinky promise. His face lit up with a big smile. "I love pinky promises" He was sure he probably sounded too enthusiastic about a silly pinky promise. But Ryan liked pinky promises too. So he twisted his pinky around hers. "I pinky promise" He smiled up to her.

[Pixel Conner]

Pixel's smiled grew. He pinky promised. She hadn't expected him to do it really, and if he did do it she expected him to just be like "Finnnne." and hold her pinky for like a second than let go. But he really freacking pinky promised. She was liking him more and more by the second. But her smiled faded a tad. She now had to tell him something that was probably going to make her sound like an idiot teenage slut. She looked away from him. She moved her hand to that instead of holding just his pinky she was holding his hand. Like a father would hold his daughters hand as they walked across the street, not linking her fingers like how she held Anthony's hand. She just needed to hold his hand.

She stuck the thumbnail back between her teeth, staring off into the darkness. Her heart was beating, racing even, her palm sweaty in his hand. How did she put it to him? She didn't want to just blurt out that she was pregnant, she wanted to say it differently, just not be so in-your-face about it. Removing her thmb again, she drew in a long breath through her nose, counting to five before she blew it slowly out of her mouth, then she looked back at him. He was like another student, he didn't have the teacher vibe that most teachers did around here. It relaxed her a little, so she was less freaking out about telling anyone. "My boyfriend's name is Anthony Matthew Price the third... So if it's a boy, it'll be Anthony Matthew Price the fourth. Then if it's a girl, it's going to be Antonia Megan Price, that way the initals will be the same as if it was a boy, jst without the four on the end of it... But I don't know it's gender yet because it's too early and I haven't even told Doctor Anders yet.." She removed her hand from his, and land it on her stomach, petting it softly, looking down at it with a small smile on her face.

[Gage Pierce]

Gage watched her when they pinky promised. He could tell she was a tad bit surprised that he actually did it and wanted to do it. He was up for anything to win her trust. Or the trust of any student. He had heard that was the hardest thing to do around here. And if a pinky promise won him that trust then a pinky promise it would be. His eyes stared at hers. Then he noticed her smile fad. Probably realizing now she had to tell him something. Cause he had in fact done what she asked. And was more enthusiastic about it then she thought.

When she let go of his pinky but continued to hold his hand, he knew it was something big. He knew physical contact around here was minimal unless it was fists meeting other surfaces of the body. But he let her hold his hand, and he even held hers back. He listened to what she was saying. Then everything clicked. She was going to have a baby. She was pregnant, right now. And she hadn't told any one who could help her yet. "Why haven't you told anyone yet?" His words were soft to her. She needed someone to tell her things would be ok, he could do that. He knew having a kid wasn't the end of the world. But she needed a doctor to tell her her body was ok, he couldn't do that with his degree.

[Pixel Conner]

Pixel looked up from her stomach, looking at Gage's blue eyes. That was a very good question and Pixel wasn't sure if she could answer it or not. "Because.." Because she didn't want to get kicked out, because she didn't want the news to spread like wild fire and people think she was a slut, because she didn't want to see the look on anyone's face when she told them, because she was nervous, because she was freaked out, because she didn't want to admit to anyone besides Anthony and Nickie that she didn't think she was going to be a good mother, because she didn't want to hear the other "options" when she did tell someone that she didn't think she would be a good mother because there were no other options, she was having this baby.

Pixel chewed on her lower lip, thinking of how to answer him. She reached out, grabbing his hand. She put it on her knee, palm up, staring down on it. She traced a line on his palm and spoke softly. "Life line.." She traced another one. "Love line.." She traced the first one again. "See I never believe these things because unless I'm just completely reading it wrong you should be married already, because your life and love line meet up pretty early and you're like what, late twenties?" Though that didn't matter to Pixel, he would be cute if he was fourty-seven and a half. She kept tracing the lines, not looking up at him.. "Because I'm scared, Gage.."

[Gage Pierce]

Gage looked back up at her. All she has said was because. Because could mean tons of stuff. And Gage didn't have any clue where to begin. He'd never been pregnant, sure he had gotten a girl pregnant but being the one with the baby growing inside of you was probably a different story then being the one that got the girl pregnant. So he couldn't even begin to know what Pixel was feeling right now. He just knew he felt for her. And he'd do what he could to help her.

Then she had a hold of his hand again. She was tracing lines on his hands. Like reading his palm. She had said she didn't believe that it worked. Because his life line and his love line met at an early age and he should be married. She was right, he should be married. Except when he had proposed Jane had said no. She didn't want to marry a man who wasn't serious enough about life. That's what she'd told him. He thought his out look on life was a good one. But apparently not what she was looking for. His eyes looked up to her from their hands. "Twenty Five but you were close" He smiled some at her. "So since my lines have already met does that mean I won't ever be in love with someone?" He had never had his palms read so he didn't know.

[Pixel Conner]

Pixel looked up at him and her heart broke. The look in his eyes, it was a little bit of sadness, even though he was smiling. She looked down at his hand. "No, no, that's not what I'm saying.. I've been in love twice, and.. The first one wasn't the guy I was suppose to marry, if he had been he would not have cheated on me. I mean, I guess I can't say that Anthony is the guy I'm suppose to marry but the way I feel about him.. It's like I'd never need anything else as long as he love, as long as I feel his love... I'll be okay, whatever I have to deal with, I can get through it.." She breathed slowly. Maybe telling the headmaster wouldn't be so bad, as long as Anthony was holding her hand.

She looked back up at Gage, reaching out and stroked his cheek. "You'll find a beautiful girl, and you'll fall in love and whatever happened before, that your love line says, it'll feel like nothing. I think about the way I acted about Alex, how I thought I'd never love anyone more than him.. But I think about Anthony, and it isn't like that. I know I'll never love anyone more, I don't want to spend my life with anyone else. And I'm so glad that I never became pregnant with Alex's baby... I couldn't deal, but I can deal with Anthony... You believe me, don't you? That you'll find love and get married? Please believe me." Pixel started tearing up, and she looked away from from his eyes, and ran her fingers into his hair, watching them. She started fixing his hair, making sure it didn't look messy. Anthony had sexy, messy hair. Gage didn't seem like he liked having sexy, messy hair. It was still attractive hair, though.

[Gage Pierce]

Gage listened as she spoke. She said that just cause his lines have already met that didn't mean he couldn't fall in love again. That made him feel a little bit better. To know his chance at a real family wasn't long gone because he had chose the wrong girl. Not that he wasn't thankful for Ryan every day but he could have possibly done a lot better then Jane. He'd given her everything she had and it wasn't good enough for her. And that blow to his ego had hurt. And at times it still did. Honestly he didn't think he'd ever find someone to spend his life with.

Then he felt her stroke his cheek. That pulled him out of his thoughts to hear what she was saying next. She was telling him that he would fall in love but she didn't know that he'd never forget what happened with Jane. So he moved a little, and reached for his wallet. He opened it up and pulled out a picture of Ryan. Then he held it out for her to take. "That's Ryan .. He's my son. Me and his mother met somewhere in the middle of my first year of college. We didn't work out, but I did ask her to marry me. She didn't think I had a serious enough out look on life. But that's my son. Its really hard to keep a girls interest when they hear about someone else's kid involved" He wasn't as happy with that statement or as upbeat and childish, but somewhat down about where he was at in life.

[Pixel Conner]

Pixel reached out and took the picture with her right hand, the one that wasn't in Gage's hair. It was the sweetest child she'd ever seen. Her broken heard was mended just by the picture of this little boy, whos mother she didn't even know and had only known his father for about half an hour. Pixel removed her hand from Gage's hair, and put that one on the picture too, holding it with both hands. When her baby was born, she wanted it to look as cute, and innocent and wonderful as Ryan did in the picture. Before even thinking about it Pixel hugged the picture to her chest. She wished she could actually hug Ryan, maybe get some practice with children before she she had one.

Pixel realized what she was doing and stopped, holding out the picture out to Gage, smiling softly. "He's a cutie, I wish I could meet him." Pixel didn't understand the way other girls worked. For Pixel it wasn't the fact that Gage had a child standing in her way, it was the fact that she would never love Gage the way she loved Anthony, so she wasn't about to risk that for a guy that was eight years older than her and probably wouldn't like her anyway, even single and not pregnant. In fact, she thought the kid was adorable, so if she was a few years older, and single, she'd probably be all over Gage. "Girls are bitches, Gage. You'll find someone wonderful and awesome and beautiful that's like great in bed and can cook and loves children and like.. I don't know. If I can find someone, so can you." Pixel touched her fingers to her lips, then to his cheek before smiling at him. "I've known you half an hour and think you're amazing so maybe the other girls are just doing it wrong."

[Gage Pierce]

Gage watched her when she took the picture. The way she looked at it made his smile grown. Maybe this place wasn't all that bad. Maybe he could have Ryan around for a day or something. When baseball started he knew Ryan was going to want to be there all the time. In the meat time he would make sure it was safe for Ryan to be around this place. He would get to know his students and do everything he could to help them. He already liked this girl. She seemed so sweet.

When she handed the picture back to him she said he was cute and she wished she could meet him. "Maybe one day you will meet him" Gage smiled more then came her next set of words. And the way she described his perfect woman made him laugh. "I'll take your word for it. You seem to know what your talking about" His now happy eyes moved back up to hers. She was a sweet heart. He'd have to hang out with her more often. "Are you in my music class?" He wondered if she took music.

[Pixel Conner]

Pixel watched him take the picture back. She almost asked to keep it, but she didn't want to freak the poor guy out. Plus, how would she explain that to Anthony? "hey, who is this random boy you have a picture of?" and she'd be forced to answer with; "oh, my cute music teachers son." Yeah, would go over well. Pixel was planning on keeping her little crush to herself. "Because if it's not love it just ain't enough to leave a happy home." That's what she had with Anthony, a happy home. About to have a family with him, and she loved him more than air somedays, because on those days it wasn't air keeping Pixel alive, it was Anthony. She didn't want to think about where she'd be if she'd never met Anthony. She would lost.

Pixel folded her hands in her lap, looking at Gage. "Yeah, I just transfared back. I was in my elective with my boyfriend, but like.. I sucked at it. I mean I love stars, but like.. that all confused me. And I'd have to try to identify which one was the little dipper and which one was the big dipper and I was like 'WHO CARES?! THEY'RE STARS.' So yeah, I left that class and got back into music. I mean, I love art and music so it only makes sense that they're my major and elective. I really want to start a glee club because a few of my friends said they'd join but I mean, the guy that was suppose to do it left and I guess I'd be the Quinn of the club because I'm knocked up." She hugged her knees, looking at him.