Pressing On [CLOSED]

[Pixel Conner]

Pixel stared at him in complete awe. Sure, she'd done it herself, but she'd never really seen anyone else do it. Plus, he said he still wanted to kiss her, and that was fine with her. "... That was hot." She closed the small gap between them and locked her lips to his again. As much as she enjoyed kissing him, she couldn't keep her mind of what she just said. Because half of it was lies, or maybe they weren't lies they were just half truths. In truth, Pixel had no idea if she was ready for a relationship or S*x yet, she hadn't really tried that hard to find them since she came here.

Then a small flicker of hope shot through Pixel. "Maybe B.A.D. can be a place for you to heal your heart, too..." Pixel had always thought of the school as a place that was trying to fix her, heal whatever was wrong with her. They seemed to think that not only was she worth fixing, but that they could. Pixel had never really believed them, because behind the mask of happiness and bright smiles, there was still the person she had been last year. It took really little to get Pixel mad enough to scream about something, but what should really bed worried about is been she gets silent, and it feels like the world has stopped spinning because you hear no sound, just the sound of your own breathing. Maybe Pixel would try to actually fix those anger problems instead of acting like they don't exist. Maybe she could finally get over what happened with Alex and move on with her life. Whatever she did, she knew that Anthony was pretty much the best thing to happen to her in a while.

[Anthony Price]

"... That was hot."

Anthony smiled feeling her close the space between them. Then her lips were on his. He put one of his hands on her cheek. He liked the feeling of her body close to his. Maybe .. Maybe she was the piece that would fill all the empty spaces in his heart. He couldn't really hide things from her. Mostly because she'd seek him out when he tried to hide things from her. He wanted to be strong like he should be. He didn't want her to see him any other way. He still had a lot of problems to work through before he could be any sort of guy she deserves to have. If he could ever be that guy. At this point in time he was so what kind of guy he could be to her.

After a few minutes he gently pulled his lips away from hers. His eyes looking to hers. "Soo .. What does making out. In my bed mean for us?" He didn't really like that question. He wanted it to sound better. But was there a better way to put that? He shook his head a tiny bit closing his eyes. "Ok you .. don't have to answer that" He felt dumb for not thinking about what he said before it left his lips. He's done that a few times now.

[Pixel Conner]

Pixel frowned slightly, thinking. What did it mean? To Pixel it meant a lot. It meant that she wasn't as broken as she thought she was. It meant that even if it just to herself, she was admitting she liked someone. It meant so many little things to her, but mostly it meant that she cared about him and didn't want to hurt him. She ran her index finger down his chest and abs, then played with the hem of his shirt. She wanted it off, but she figured that that would only farther confused the both of them, seeing as she hadn't answered the question yet.

She leaned forward, and rested her forehead on his shoulder, looking down at her hand playing with his shirt. She lifted it up a bit, then ran her hand under it, running it up to rest on his chest. She looked up at him. "It means.. It means that we're still gonna be friends, no matter what. Even when we both leave the school, and whatever is gonna happen happened, I'm still gonna call you up on Friday nights when I'm bored and lonely and ask to go see a movie with you... I... want you to let it mean whatever you want it to.. Don't stress about it, let it be what it's gonna be." She smiled at him softly, trying to figure out if anything she just said made any sense to anyone else.

[Anthony Price]

Anthony watched her while it looked like she was thinking about how to answer his question. He felt her finger move down his chest and to his abs. Then a moment later he felt her cool hand against his warm skin. And she let it rest on his chest. She planned on them being friends well after they were through with this school. Maybe living in the same place or close to each other is what it sounded like.

Anthony breathed through some of his pain thinking for a moment. "I'm not sure what it is exactly... Ok so I've never really said this out loud but I've never had a real relationship .. Friends with benefits sure but .. you deserve better then that .. And I don't know what I can give you" He swallowed looking back at her. Then he let his head rest against the pillow. He hated feeling this way. And he couldn't really remember what it felt like to be clean and sober. He's been high for a long time, For good reasons he thought anyway.

[Pixel Conner]

Pixel took her hand out of his shirt and reached up, petting the side of his face softly. She loved how he thought she deserved better, but she hated that he didn't seem to think he was the better she needed. She didn't know him that well, but already he was ten times better then any of the guys she'd dated before him, even if he did drugs. She opened her mouth to say something, but for once in her life she was completely at a lost for words, so she laid on head on the pillow, facing him, smiling softly.

"Do you wanna sleep? I can go if you need me too. She didn't really want to, in fact, she'd rather cuddle with him while they both took a nap. Then again that could be another thing that would farther confused them. Pixel didn't know what to do. She liked Anthony, and she really wanted to be with him, but there was still that part of her that was scared of getting hurt again. She wanted to punch that part of her and attack Anthony with hugs and kisses and just about all the love he could stand, but she didn't see that happening anytime soon.

[Anthony Price]

"Do you wanna sleep? I can go if you need me too."

Anthony tightened his grip on her to make her stay. "Don't go .. Since your here .. You should stay with me. Just don't leave me alone ok" His body wanted terribly to sleep but he didn't want to sleep. He didn't want to see those things. So stubbornly he kept his eyes open, looking to hers. He liked looking at her eyes. They were a pretty color.

"I don't want to sleep" He was hoping he wouldn't have to explain things this time. He had never told anyone why he didn't sleep. The drugs and the reason why he was here were an open book sure. But no one else knows what he saw that haunts him in his sleep and he wasn't sure he could tell her if she asked. And secrets weren't a good thing to build anything on especially if the other person knows your keeping something from them.

[Pixel Conner]

Pixel nodded. She understood someone not wanting to go to sleep. She had night terrors most nights, which were pretty much just really realistic dreams, and when she wasn't having night terrors she was either unable to sleep, or she slept poorly and talked in her sleep. One time she woke up at camp to someone saying that she'd been quoting the poem from "10 Things I hate About You" Which made sense, because it was one of her favorite movies next to The Princess Bride, and she'd watched both of those movies about a million times.

"I won't leave you as long as you want me.." She hated admitting that. It gave Anthony so much power over her, and it scared her a bit. But she felt alright with it, she knew that Anthony could hurt her in ways she'd promised she'd never have to hurt again, but she had a feeling that Anthony wouldn't, not on purpose. That was probably what scared her about it, that things happened and people got hurt without either person wanted to hurt or get hurt. She held Anthony close, leaning over and kissing his cheek softly. "We can do whatever you want.. Okay?"

[Anthony Price]

Anthony smiled softly feeling her lips on his cheek. He was really game for anything as long as it meant not sleeping. He moved his hand and wiped some sweat from his forehead. He looked down slightly at what he was wearing. Then he decided it was time for him to change. He slowly sat up. This was all hard for him to do. "I've been trying not to sweat so much while I lay here you know .. I don't want the sheets to smell funny .. So I've been .. changing every few hours." He slowly moved off the bed and the the dresser that was his.

He dug in the drawer looking for more stuff to put on. Once he found what he was looking for he pulled his sweaty tank top off and wiped himself off with a towel, then he put on a t-shirt. Then he moved back to the bed and sat down next to her. "I'm game for doing anything but sleeping" His eyes looked back to her. She was completely cool to stay with him for how ever long he wanted her to.

[Pixel Conner]

She watched him change, silently wishing he'd just keep the shirt off. She looked around his room. There really wasn't much to do at the school. "Um... Wanna play truth or dare or 20 questions or something?" She grinned, laughing softly. "Or, if you have a deck of card we could play strip poker. She was meaning it as a joke, but if Anthony said he wanted to, she might. Though she'd probably have to get redressed.

She wished she had all her movies from back home, and her laptop. She could set it up and they could watch movies together. Pixel had a huge collection of DVDs, because she could go buy ten of them at a time, and if one her friends back home would give her movies all the time. She had all the original cases in a few boxes in her garage, but she had put them in three huge CD cases. When it was raining, or she was just having a back day she use to love to get them out and lay in bed for hours watching them. She smiled softly at the memory, wishing she could go back to then, if even for just a moment. Though as hard as things were at B.A.D, Anthony made it a little better for her to deal it. She didn't want to stay here forever, but still, it helped just having him around.

[Anthony Price]

Anthony sat thinking for a moment about her game suggestions. They all sounded good for keeping him awake. "How about 20 questions while we play poker?" He looked over to her with a daring smile. He pulled a deck of cards from the drawer in the table by his bed. He held them up waiting to see what she thought. She'd have the advantage since he was wearing less clothes then she was.

While he was waiting to see what she thought, a yawn escaped from his lips. He tried to hide just how tired he was. But he wasn't sleeping for anything. He out right refused. His dreams were so, vivid, but now he had a beautiful girl suggesting to play strip poker with him. How could he pass that up. He moved his hand and tucked one of her stray hairs behind her ear. He liked being able to see her eyes. He hoped maybe they could be more then friends but, he wasn't sure if she wanted that so he kept those thoughts to himself.

[Pixel Conner]

She smiled, nodding. She watched Anthony push her hair back, liking how he did that. "Yes, I would enjoy that. I deal and you ask the first question or other way around?" She got up, stepping back into her jeans. She didn't button them, knowing she'd probably be losing and stripping them off again soon. She straitened the covers before sitting back down. She would put on her over shirt but them that would be super unfair to Anthony. She already had four pieces of clothing to his three... Or was he going commando? Either way, they were about to get naked with either other. Pixel wonder would would happen next? Would they start making again and one thing lead to another, or would they just sit there naked? Pixel cracked a smile at her owns thoughts, looking up into Anthony's eyes as she wanted for his reply.

[Anthony Price]

"Yes, I would enjoy that. I deal and you ask the first question or other way around?"

Anthony folded his legs and turned to face her all the way. Now he needed to think of a question. His face reflected his deep thought for a moment. "Ok .. If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be and why?" He smiled a little seeing if she'd notice if he stuck an extra question in there. He watched her shuffle. It seemed the way she did things were cute. And it wasn't just some things it was everything. He tried to push those thoughts out of his head.

Once she dealt the cards he looked at his seeing if he had anything good. And since they weren't playing texas holdem he knew he could discard up to all five of his cards. It had been a long time since he played poker. He discarded a couple cards and picked up a few. Then his dark blue eyes looked at hers waiting to see what she was going to do.

[Pixel Conner]

Secret number one, Pixel had never played poker. Secret number two, Pixel had never gone outside of Texas before coming to B.A.D. and had never really thought about where she would go. She stared at her hand, trying to mask the blank stare of confusion. Finally she gave up, and laid the hand down face up. "I'd go to Nevada and learn to play poker. " She shrugged.

"Okay, so the question that counts towards the twenty questions is what is the number one thing on your bucket list, and the one that doesn't count it what do you want me to take off? I'm pretty sure I just lost there." She grinned. She didn't mind losing, she was just hoping would start losing soon... Or maybe she'd just strip off his clothes. Either way, she had a feeling they were both going to end up naked.

[Anthony Price]

Anthony looked down at her cards when she laid them down. He couldn't help but smile. He felt somewhat bad for her. "Ok here let me help you" He put his cards down. "See you have three of these with the same suit and if you get rid of these two.. and pick up two new cards .." He turned over her two new cards. "See and these two match your other three which give you a flush .. and that .. beats my three of a kind" He put his cards down so she could see them. Then looked up to her with a smile.

He took his shirt off seeing as how she one that hand and thought about her question. "Hm .. I've never had a bucket list .. So I guess ... Maybe one day I'd like to jump out of a plane or something" He knew that was probably what everyone said. "Soo what do you want to do when you grow up?" He had a feeling it would have something to do with art since she was so good at drawing.

[Pixel Conner]

Pixel smiled, looking down at the cards. She put them all back together and handed them to Anthony to shuffle. She was trying to resist the urge to close the space between them and run her hands over his newly exposed chest. It became easier once she had cards in front of her. She tried to make sense of what Anthony had told her to do, while trying to think of the answer to his question. If someone had asked Pixel the same question a year ago, before B.A.D, she would have had a million answers for them. But now.. It seemed like everything she wanted to do she couldn't because she had a criminal record.

She laid down four of her cards, then picked up four, but none of them matched or looked like they would go together, so she wasn't sure if that had been the right thing to do. She stared at them, then looked up at him. "... I wanted to be a stylist. Like people that pick out outfits for other people? I like clothes, so I thought it would be fun. If I could ever make it happen, I still want to be a princess. I don't know of a girl that doesn't secretly want to be a stay at home mom... I don't know.. I guess if I had to pick one thing, I'd just want to be happy when I grow up. I'd want to be able to put all the crap in my childhood and teenage years behind me, settle down, get married. Maybe I'd have kids, maybe not. Maybe I'd go to work as a lawyer, or a baker, or some other random as hell job, or maybe I'd be a housewife... As long as I was happy, I wouldn't care what happened." Pixel's tone was quiet, and calm. She'd been the most honest she had ever been with someone, and she wasn't sure how to feel about it. She'd just opened her mouth and her heart had came spilling out through her words.

She laid down her cards, staring at them again, then she looked up at him. She wasn't smiling, and she somewhat expressionless without being cold. She was still thinking about her words, and the raw truth behind them. She took a deep breath, realizing it was her turn. "You, same question."